My Love Never End...

First of all, Congrats Dear Ex... for the good news that i just heard yesterday.

It been almost 3 years, since October 2010... we are decide to leave each other.

2008, be a best moment in my life, knowing you and we are start being a good friend.

2009 - 2010, i got the great and awesome life with you, loving you, spend our tyme together, share every single thing, be a great bestfriend and perfect partner. I own this world when i with you. All the great, ups and downs moment.

October 2010, we're in critical phase, every thing are change, we fight even for a small matter, we broke each other heart and the end we end up this beautiful relationship.

Since that day, i try my best to fix every thing, every single mistake that i made but still not working, to you be with me again. 

Since that day, i'm crying over and over, night by night, day by day. I just can't imagine me without you.

Since that day, i fight with my self, encourage my self, telling my own self that you and me never be together. It been a year to persuade my own self, accept that the reality, realize it. 

Since that day, i try my best try not to relate anything about me with you. It been another year to face the fact that i need to let you go and live my life without you. No more You and Me and Me and You. I think i'm doing great even deep inside me still suffer. 

Since that day, to accept all the reality and take another step forward, i just got a good news from someone  that you now legally own by someone else. I just realize how much i love you. how hurt it is. its kill me, i cant believe it. i'm cry and cry, over and over again. all the memories pop up and it hurt. almost 3 years i'm try to cure my own self, but nothing change my love for you. yesterday i just realize i still love you, so much and too much. all my heart. "hancur hatiku mengenang dikau menjadi keping keping setelah kau pergi" 

It hurting me, still... 

Dear Ex, since first tyme i tell you that i love you on YM until tonite, my love for you still the same way i felt before. 

Dear Ex, i'm happy for you... tuu doa i setiap malam supaya you bahagia. Sakit tuu biar i jer yang rasa. I redho syg...

Start from this moment, I lepaskan you, i redho jika nie dugaan/ujian Allah untuk i, i redho jika bahagia you nie, kedukaan i. 

But keep in you mind, my love for you never end. i always love you... 

kisses, hugs, love from me,

Jue :'(

Neg Out

Neg-Out term baru aku belajar since aku keje...

Ari nie aku Neg-Out, dengan owang yang aku sayang...

Aku create this game than aku sendiri yang Neg-Out dengan sume tu...

Fucking shitt, aku memang crik masalah sndiri...

Aku protest, aku diam, aku pretend, aku wat sume...

Last2 aku yang down...

Kau memang carik penyakit Juana Nashiha Ayu...

Fucker!!!

Lagu2 Jiwa

Lately nie aku banyak dengar lagu2 yang bagi aku sumber inspiration pada aku...

Lagu2 yang aku pernah dengar dulu dalam mencarik kekuatan, ketenangan...

Lagu2 yang berkaetan dengan owang3 yang aku sayang, yang memberi aku bahagia, kesedihan, mengajar aku erti kehidupan, putus asa dan kebangkitan aku semula....

Setiap kali aku jatuh cinta... melodi indah jadi buaian mimpi lena aku

Setiap kali aku kecundang... liriknya menjadi pembakar semangat aku...

Bila aku happy, alunannya seakan2 menari bersama aku...

Sedih pula, iramanya seolah-olah mengerti tentang per yang aku lalui...

Kenangan demi kenangan... 

Aku jadikan die sempadan dan pengajaran dalam hidup aku...

Aku ulanginya seperti lagu lagu yang aku selalu dengar...

Agar selalu segar di hati dan ingatan aku...

Supaya aku tidak lupakan mereka mereka yang pernah buat aku tersenyum, aku menangis, aku jatuh tersungkur, aku bangun, aku menari...

Walaupun kebanyak kan mereka tidak lagu seiring bersama aku, bersyukur dengan kehadiran mereka yang membuka mata aku mengenali dunia, cinta, kasih, sayang....

Mereka2 ini ibarat lagu2...

Yang mewarnakan hari dan kehidupan aku... 

Aku Dedicate kan lagu nie...

Itulah Sayang 😁😁😁

Untuk mereka yang aku syg...

CRUSH... impossible to have

Since that evening... yang aku sangat terjatuh hati tengok die...
Aku tau aku xmungkin akn dapat die jadi milik aku...
Tapi aku tetap... ingin mencuba nasib...
Akhirnya... die tetap bukan milik aku... mungkin untuk selama lamanya...

That evening, 2nd tyme i saw you... i know, you are the one my heart choose... you are the one i want to be mine...but still i realize it never happen.... your smile, smell, voice and eyes just drive me crazy...

I love your smile... it be a reason why i'm smile too
I love your smell... it make me close to you
I love your voice... it make me melted like a butter
I love your eyes... it can make my heart beat fast

Damn, i'm falling in love with you but nothing i can say and do...
You have someone that you love the most...
I'm just a little part in your life story...

Baby i just love you... not planning it...
It just happen....
Sowie for loving you...

your love,
J.D.

Rindu :(

Malam nie rasa rindu sangat kat die... nape tah?!
Since sok majlis perkahwinan bestfriend die and aku... mybe der peluang untuk aku jumpa die... but than aku rasa xperlu kot g...
Entah lar... aku rindu sangat kat die tapi aku still xmampu berdepan dengan die... sume rasa der kalau berdepan dengan die... yang pasti aku dengan die lar best actor ever...
Aku xmampu nk sorok per yang aku rasa... sebab per yang der tersisa kat dalam hati aku... aku sangat sayangkan die...
Mungkin der hikmah kenapa esok aku xp wedding otai aku tuu...

For my otai... selamat pegantin baru babe...
Akhirnya!!! babe... ko jd pengantin jugak...
Semoga berbahagia hingga ke akhir hayat...

Antara Cinta Kasih dan Sayang...

Antara Cinta Kasih dan Sayang, mana satu pilihan mu dan mana satu untuk mu...

Tepuk dada tanya lah hati...

I Called Them MyDream Team (handball)

They are MyDream Team... it just came true...
I love them so much... each of MyDream Team...
It just happen without my attention... that evening just an opportunity to me have my own team.
Now they part of me...
Thanks cos giving me that valuable, great chance...

For who in this team, thanks cos being apart of this team...
Be apart of MyDream Team...
Be apart of my life...
Be a good player of great team, for me... by showing your 200% commitment, efforts, and interest to learn something new...
I just never thought it will be a best moment in my life...

Now they are apart of my life...
My sisters and brothers....
My friends and beloved....
With all the personality and characters they have... just color up my world and live...
With all the crapy, crazies, stupidness, messy story... i just enjoying be apart...

With our trademark "KawKaw"...
I love them KawKaw...
Thanks guys.... you just complete my dream cream and my whole life...
I just hope it will be forever and ever after....
I and them, you and me, we and us....

Thanks with 1000x kisses and hugging...
For you, MyDream Team


Your Kak Jue,
J.D.