Neg Out

Neg-Out term baru aku belajar since aku keje...
Ari nie aku Neg-Out, dengan owang yang aku sayang...
Aku create this game than aku sendiri yang Neg-Out dengan sume tu...
Fucking shitt, aku memang crik masalah sndiri...
Aku protest, aku diam, aku pretend, aku wat sume...
Last2 aku yang down...
Kau memang carik penyakit Juana Nashiha Ayu...
Fucker!!!



Lagu2 Jiwa

Lately nie aku banyak dengar lagu2 yang bagi aku sumber inspiration pada aku...
Lagu2 yang aku pernah dengar dulu dalam mencarik kekuatan, ketenangan...
Lagu2 yang berkaetan dengan owang3 yang aku sayang, yang memberi aku bahagia, kesedihan, mengajar aku erti kehidupan, putus asa dan kebangkitan aku semula....

Setiap kali aku jatuh cinta... melodi indah jadi buaian mimpi lena aku
Setiap kali aku kecundang... liriknya menjadi pembakar semangat aku...
Bila aku happy, alunannya seakan2 menari bersama aku...
Sedih pula, iramanya seolah-olah mengerti tentang per yang aku lalui...

Kenangan demi kenangan... 
Aku jadikan die sempadan dan pengajaran dalam hidup aku...
Aku ulanginya seperti lagu lagu yang aku selalu dengar...
Agar selalu segar di hati dan ingatan aku...
Supaya aku tidak lupakan mereka mereka yang pernah buat aku tersenyum, aku menangis, aku jatuh tersungkur, aku bangun, aku menari...
Walaupun kebanyak kan mereka tidak lagu seiring bersama aku, bersyukur dengan kehadiran mereka yang membuka mata aku mengenali dunia, cinta, kasih, sayang....

Mereka2 ini ibarat lagu2...
Yang mewarnakan hari dan kehidupan aku... 
Aku Dedicate kan lagu nie...
Itulah Sayang 😁😁😁
Untuk mereka yang aku syg...


CRUSH... impossible to have

Since that evening... yang aku sangat terjatuh hati tengok die...
Aku tau aku xmungkin akn dapat die jadi milik aku...
Tapi aku tetap... ingin mencuba nasib...
Akhirnya... die tetap bukan milik aku... mungkin untuk selama lamanya...

That evening, 2nd tyme i saw you... i know, you are the one my heart choose... you are the one i want to be mine...but still i realize it never happen.... your smile, smell, voice and eyes just drive me crazy...

I love your smile... it be a reason why i'm smile too
I love your smell... it make me close to you
I love your voice... it make me melted like a butter
I love your eyes... it can make my heart beat fast

Damn, i'm falling in love with you but nothing i can say and do...
You have someone that you love the most...
I'm just a little part in your life story...

Baby i just love you... not planning it...
It just happen....
Sowie for loving you...

your love,
J.D.







Rindu :(

Malam nie rasa rindu sangat kat die... nape tah?!
Since sok majlis perkahwinan bestfriend die and aku... mybe der peluang untuk aku jumpa die... but than aku rasa xperlu kot g...
Entah lar... aku rindu sangat kat die tapi aku still xmampu berdepan dengan die... sume rasa der kalau berdepan dengan die... yang pasti aku dengan die lar best actor ever...
Aku xmampu nk sorok per yang aku rasa... sebab per yang der tersisa kat dalam hati aku... aku sangat sayangkan die...
Mungkin der hikmah kenapa esok aku xp wedding otai aku tuu...

For my otai... selamat pegantin baru babe...
Akhirnya!!! babe... ko jd pengantin jugak...
Semoga berbahagia hingga ke akhir hayat...





Antara Cinta Kasih dan Sayang...

Antara Cinta Kasih dan Sayang, mana satu pilihan mu dan mana satu untuk mu...

Tepuk dada tanya lah hati...

I Called Them MyDream Team (handball)

They are MyDream Team... it just came true...
I love them so much... each of MyDream Team...
It just happen without my attention... that evening just an opportunity to me have my own team.
Now they part of me...
Thanks cos giving me that valuable, great chance...

For who in this team, thanks cos being apart of this team...
Be apart of MyDream Team...
Be apart of my life...
Be a good player of great team, for me... by showing your 200% commitment, efforts, and interest to learn something new...
I just never thought it will be a best moment in my life...

Now they are apart of my life...
My sisters and brothers....
My friends and beloved....
With all the personality and characters they have... just color up my world and live...
With all the crapy, crazies, stupidness, messy story... i just enjoying be apart...

With our trademark "KawKaw"...
I love them KawKaw...
Thanks guys.... you just complete my dream cream and my whole life...
I just hope it will be forever and ever after....
I and them, you and me, we and us....

Thanks with 1000x kisses and hugging...
For you, MyDream Team


Your Kak Jue,
J.D.






unstable internal and external emotion

i live in harmony and happiest family in the world... complete with every human being need from their family... and i work out my mind withe the positive to be observed and negative thing to be learn...

since i get know.. how that world looks like... it start to be killing me... slowly deep inside me... heart broken matter, friendship thing, scandal shit, financial needed, working for a life, entertainment for survive, love to have and keep... so mess and completely out of my control...

lately i have bad luck in relationship... ut have been 2 almost 3 years single... and s trying hard to fine the right one... just fit to me...internal an external... not sure until when will stuck in this bad luck....

friendship... huh... sometime seem it the other reason why i still standing here but sometime... need to be more cool to control internal and external emotion around me... try my best... not to hurt other people... somehow still need to deal and manage everything... try my best to makes other happy more than i have for
my own self...

sometime... just wanna cry... it hard to dealing with internal and external emotion... i'm just try my hard to keep everything fine... to control situation... to manage what supposed to feel... sometime i broke my own feeling... my own desired and needed... just to ensure no one hurt by me....

i be my own hero...
and others hero...
i just live what i have... color up them to be part of mine...

broken heart,
JD